Rainy Days

It rained last night. Today the sky is still overcast. This day seems to fit my world right now. Dark and overcast. Sadness. Hurt. Depression. Bryan's great-aunt passed away yesterday so he is in Dallas with his family. Mourning. I am home mourning for Bryan. I feel his pain. He wasn't that close to her, yet he was. It is always hard when you have a death in the family. Today seems to fit everything. I am in a melancholy mood. Lazy. I could just sleep all day, except for my bed makes my back hurt so I hate getting in it. I'm low on money so I can't go do anything fun. There are so many things I want and feel like I need but I have not the money to buy these things. Overcast is my life. There is never enough money to go around. There never has been and I wonder if there ever will be. Sorry for being so depressing today, but it is my true feelings. I am tired of hiding what I feel. I strive... for something. I want peace and happiness and sunshine. But that won't come today. I'm sorry for those who are hurting. Just let it out. Let out all your emotions. Don't hold it in. It isn't good for you. Maybe tomorrow will bring sunshine. Who knows?